God is faithful

God never changes. Only my understanding of God may change over time. Thank you Lord for building me up again. Thank you for installing within me that boldness to persevere and reach out. That I can fully grasp again, that I am fully saved by grace through faith. Lord I cannot earn your love, but I do so want to help to advance your kingdom! The problem is was running in front of you, not behind you. I was trying to meet an expectation that was not yours, and so I grew more and more weary. What an experience. And Lord I thank you.

1Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ: 2By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. 3And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; 4And patience, experience; and experience, hope: 5And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us. (Romans 5:1-4)

Lord today I was able to pray for people and tell them about your goodness again. I saw sad faces starting to smile, and two people telling me they had no more pain and the other that they felt very happy after prayer. I thank you Lord that I can not only bless them by telling them about you, but that you have also given me the means to bless them financially. I pray you will sustain this in  my life. But if not, then I know even that will be a blessing!

Lord Jesus, thank you for doing a great work in me. Please have your way Lord, your way is good, my way is disappointing, too hard and tiring. Your yolk is light, and it is you who gives me rest.

Father in heaven, thank you for the revelation given to me via Scott Clarke, that the books written by Paul are for the body of Christ, Hebrews and onward is written for the Jews, to redeem them during the tribulation period. (Note to self, futher study….)

All praise be to Jesus Christ!

Amen.

Set back – when the storm came

I fully came to Christ about 2 years ago. I repented, got baptized and received the Holy Spirit. I was elated. As I had seen the spiritual reality both of God and of the devil the teaching of Mr Curry Blake but also of others such as of Mr Torben Sonderguard rang true. They helped to wake me up and equip me to follow Jesus Christ.
I was “kick-started” to help heal the sick and preach the Gospel, and to set people free from demons in Jesus name. I’ve witnessed deliverance and healing. My walk was full on in the Lord. I never felt so alive. I was full of energy and every spare minute of the day (when not concentrating on the job or on my kids) my mind was on Christ. I was giving the Holy Spirit all the room and I was even used by the Lord to bring 5 people at my work to Christ! Baptism and all. And this in a very “professional” secular environment…
I wasn’t perfect, but my love for the Lord and to obey Him seemed perfect.
Then came an accident. I fell from a ladder and crushed my heelbone. I was hospitalised. I tried to pray right away but I was overwhelmed with pain. My parents were on the scene, my kids, it was too much for me to handle. My foot was operated on a week later and I wasn’t allowed to walk on it for 3 months. I was given morphine 4-6 weeks. Getting off themwas a terror as well. I went through a week of no sleep as I quit using them cold turkey. My faith in God never faded, but my faith in my ability to work for God faded immensely.
The accident took place in September 2017. Now that I’ve been fully back to work since end of January I feel deflated.
I feel I let God down, Im frustrated at some of my family members who instead of praying with me would be all to ready to point out that “see, you can’t even “heal” your “heel”. No Matter how clear I am that it is Jesus who heals when healing takes place…
I won’t let the Devil nor his Minions win, they have taken advantage of the situation by many smaller attacks of course and I’m getting warn down. I try to fast, I can’t even complete one day. I don’t feel confident anymore to pray for people out of fear of getting one more rejection. And while I’m writing this I understand I have to push through. And I will, but I could really use some prayer to help me get out of this miserable state. Less of me more of Jesus. But my mind is foggy as well. I can’t handle too much input. I feel overtired.
Thank you for your prayers, Jesus will prevail in me!

Good vs evil – Free will

God is a good God. He created us with a free will. And we are free to choose. Good and Evil. How free would we be if every time we wanted to go against the nature of God, He would block us? He won’t. From the beginning, He never wanted us to have to face darkness. However, if He would not have given us the choice, the opportunity to face it, we would not have been created in His likeness.

27 So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them. Genesis 1:27

Our first choice was given to us in the Garden of Eden. We chose to know about good and evil. Did God know we would eat of the tree of good and evil against His command? I believe so. And I believe He had His redemptive plan ready all along. By eating of the fruit of that tree we digested darkness. No longer were we beings of light. Our reality changed. Paradise (that which is void of evil) could no longer be our home as we had brought evil into our reality, could there be darkness in paradise? So we were removed and now we find ourselves in a fallen world. A world where exits both good AND evil.

Jesus reminds us that Satan is “the prince of this world” (John 12:31), Paul refers to Satan as “the god of this world, who hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine to them.” (2 Corinthians 4:4) and “the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience” (Ephesians 2:2) John makes a further distinction when he says: “We know that we are of God, and the whole world lieth in wickedness” (1 John 5:19).

Thank God He did not leave us without instruction on how to deal with this world where people have access to evil and the means to manifest it in all its gruesomeness. He gave us a manual. The Bible**! First He gave direction through His prophets in the old testament. They needed to follow strict laws and perform rituals to cleanse themselves from unrighteousness in order to receive from a Holy God. You must understand, what is Holy (sacred, blessed, pure, light, loving and righteous) keeps what is unholy far from it or else it would no longer be “Holy”. But in order for all of us to be able to reconnect to him despite our “unholiness”, He provided salvation for all who dwell on the earth, the sacrifice of Himself, of his only begotten son, to cover the sins of the world, so that all who choose Him could be redeemed by His righteousness. Only then can we receive His life giving Holy Spirit, to stay and make His home within us until the end.

What does that mean? It means each of us can be led into all truth directly by God through His holy Spirit. When we pray, read the Bible and consciously seek to connect with our one creator God on His terms. For me personally this choice and journey meant I received of His peace. He changed my person. My heart has literally changed from where I preferred to stay in house on my couch to where I now love to connect with people. From where I encountered and recognized divine intervention once every few years, to where it has become my daily bread! The overwhelming peace, joy and calmness I experience even when things around me may seem to fall apart is the strongest witness for me that the Lord is guiding my every step day by day perfecting my knowledge of Him. Tweeking my understanding, my discernment through failures and victories.  It is a journey and I love it.

And so it is, that once we turn back to God and ask His forgiveness for our shortcomings and wrong doing and for the years where we put Him last on our priority list or where He was not listed at all, and we thank Him for His great love for us as shown by the greatest sacrifice of His own son Jesus Christ, that He will redeem us and give us life abundantly.

**I will not enter into a long discussion on the preservation of text and different versions of the Bible. If you wish to find God’s truth, the King James Version will help you a long way! And with the help of biblical scolars and messianic Jews who know about the culture and the rituals that the Bible refers to much will become more clear. I found some excellent teachers that reveal many mysteries hidden within scripture which I will list in the media section.

Prayers answered next day

Today has been a really wonderful day. The beauty of it started yesterday. I went over to my colleagues house, whom got baptised as well. (Three colleagues got baptised in the mean time, one was baptised by me and another colleague, such a beautiful experience.)

So I went to my friends house to meet her mother and also to hopefully be allowed to pray for her. She was having a rough time having lost her husband a few years back.

I knew about the family but I’d never met anyone yet so it was great to finally meet her. The evening was lovely, and she agreed to receive prayer. Gods presence was so strong it brought much peace. When I left I was singing in tongues in the car and praising the Lord as I still felt filled with His joy. I knew the prayer in the house and the continued prayer in the car would take effect.

I continued to lift up in prayers the names of other people, particularly of staff at work. One of them whom I had provided some encouragement and offered prayer a while back, but had not answered my email since August. I prayed God would increase the hunger in their heart to know more of Him, and that if He wanted me to play a role in this I would love to do so.

The very next morning I came in to work. My colleague for whose mom I prayed the day before was beaming, her mom had really enjoyed the evening and seemed to have found new energy, she “livened up” so to speak. My colleague was so happy!!

Since her baptism she had relayed bits and pieces of what she had been experiencing and my name had popped up as we often discuss our experiences together. Naturally the family would question who is this person that “led” her to get baptised. She said any doubts her mother may have had had left. I had given her the new book of Johnathan Can, “The book of Mysteries”. She treated it as a precious gift and would start to read it. My colleague and I rejoiced, as my colleagues fear for her mother’s lethargy since the passing of her husband had been lifted.

Then in came an email, the other staff member I had prayed for last night, who hadn’t responded to my offer to help for weeks, contacted me by email first thing in the morning! Fantastic! He asked to receive prayer, he said he wasn’t ready just yet but hoped to meet with me in November. I can’t wait!

Be real, show yourself to others as you are

Today has been an amazing day, going through emotions from an ultimate low to an ultimate high.

A few weeks back I found myself thinking about a new car and googling new cars researching prices etc. I had no need for a new car, there was no reason for this sudden interest. I noticed the thought didn’t let me go. I told my husband I felt we would be needing a new car sooner than we had envisaged. Unfortunately I left it at that and took no further steps to check out our current car properly.

Today, we were all packed and ready to go on holidays when we decided to quickly have the car checked as we heard some rattling noise coming from the back right of the car. My husband took the car to the garage and I completely forgot about my thoughts those few weeks prior. I was expecting good news as the rattling sounded more like one of my kids had dropped a marble which was rolling around somewhere. To the contrary, it was bad. Some axle or rod connected to the wheel suspension was bent (ok, so cars are not my forte). We were advised against travelling.

My heart broke. My 5 year old was all geared up to go, and having to disappoint her was gruelling. And then all the wasted money and preparation, and a ferry to catch around noon! Aargh. I felt sick to my stomach. I cried a little but didn’t want my two year old to notice (the eldest was at the garage with dad). I went into prayer. Asking the Lord for wisdom for my husband and I to handle this situation well.

Thankfully I could change our ferry booking as well as the hotel reservation with limited additional cost. We did our research and found a good car an hours drive up north. A newer model than our old one, which was kind of exciting too! On our way back we stopped at what wee though would be a pancake place, but in actual fact they only served fries and snacks. At first I wanted to leave and get some proper food. But the place was really quaint and the man behind the counter was very engaging and friendly.

So we ordered our fries, and I’m so pleased we did! We got to talking and he shared with us his story of how he had recently bought the place and fixed it up. And how he was loving the flow he was in now but also looking forward to being able to take it a little more easy soon once the project had been properly set up.

I found myself concurring with him that its important to take rest now and then. And that people should more often follow their heart and do what they enjoy, that which brings them fulfilment instead of what they think they have to do in order to meet the expectations of society, family, friends etc.

He pointed out that the painting above my head, which was very dear to him, explained just that! (I’ve asked to be sent a photo of the painting, I cant remember exactly but will upload asap). It was about being genuine. About being who you really are. No facades.

This hit home to me. One of those moments when you hear yourself talking to another person and thinking, wow that’s pretty wise, I should take note myself! In accordance with my previous post I’d been taking it easy for a while. Not engaging with others about Christ as much as I used to and thereby I realised I was no longer on fire. And not being on fire takes away from my courage. And not having courage takes away my boldness to approach people to offer them prayer. And I know that THE way to rekindle that fire is simply to do the will of God. And what is his will? Well at least part of it is cleary described:

7 As you go, proclaim this message: ‘The kingdom of heaven has come near.’ Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received; freely give. Matthew 10:7-8

It is the act of faith that relights the fire of Holy Spirit in you. And so I have again learnt this evening. I acted upon the words to be who I really am. And I know, I really am a child of the most high God. I, though I am female, have become a son of God the day I accepted Jesus into my heart! (Gender is not important in the spiritual realm btw). So anyhow, that means that I should act like one. So I referred to the text and explained that I regularly pray for people and offered him prayer. His face lit up. Yes he was clearly pleasantly surprised! And so I explained a little and then prayed for him. And what happened next was mind-boggling!

The music that was playing all evening were regular pop songs. At the moment I finished my prayer and I quieted myself, keeping my hands on his feet, the song that was playing in the back ground was that of Joan Osborne, “One of Us” and the verse that was sang at the moment I shut up was:

If God had a face, what would it look like?
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like Heaven and in Jesus and the saints
And all the prophets? And…

Wow! God never ceases to amaze!

We continued a very interesting conversation. Sharing past experiences and discussing manifestations of God which he had before encountered. When were done I asked him how his feet were doing, and he replied, he didn’t want to interrupt our conversation or he would have told me sooner, but his feet were now warm, whereas they had always been cold (and no, I didn’t lay my hands on in such a manner as to warm his feet…) He felt a warming sensation ever since the prayer.

Missing our boat to England has been so worth it because of this divine appointment. And the rest of the evening my heart felt like it were to explode! I felt like singing and dancing and shouting about His love from the rooftops!

Thank you Lord Jesus!