Be real, show yourself to others as you are

Today has been an amazing day, going through emotions from an ultimate low to an ultimate high.

A few weeks back I found myself thinking about a new car and googling new cars researching prices etc. I had no need for a new car, there was no reason for this sudden interest. I noticed the thought didn’t let me go. I told my husband I felt we would be needing a new car sooner than we had envisaged. Unfortunately I left it at that and took no further steps to check out our current car properly.

Today, we were all packed and ready to go on holidays when we decided to quickly have the car checked as we heard some rattling noise coming from the back right of the car. My husband took the car to the garage and I completely forgot about my thoughts those few weeks prior. I was expecting good news as the rattling sounded more like one of my kids had dropped a marble which was rolling around somewhere. To the contrary, it was bad. Some axle or rod connected to the wheel suspension was bent (ok, so cars are not my forte). We were advised against travelling.

My heart broke. My 5 year old was all geared up to go, and having to disappoint her was gruelling. And then all the wasted money and preparation, and a ferry to catch around noon! Aargh. I felt sick to my stomach. I cried a little but didn’t want my two year old to notice (the eldest was at the garage with dad). I went into prayer. Asking the Lord for wisdom for my husband and I to handle this situation well.

Thankfully I could change our ferry booking as well as the hotel reservation with limited additional cost. We did our research and found a good car an hours drive up north. A newer model than our old one, which was kind of exciting too! On our way back we stopped at what wee though would be a pancake place, but in actual fact they only served fries and snacks. At first I wanted to leave and get some proper food. But the place was really quaint and the man behind the counter was very engaging and friendly.

So we ordered our fries, and I’m so pleased we did! We got to talking and he shared with us his story of how he had recently bought the place and fixed it up. And how he was loving the flow he was in now but also looking forward to being able to take it a little more easy soon once the project had been properly set up.

I found myself concurring with him that its important to take rest now and then. And that people should more often follow their heart and do what they enjoy, that which brings them fulfilment instead of what they think they have to do in order to meet the expectations of society, family, friends etc.

He pointed out that the painting above my head, which was very dear to him, explained just that! (I’ve asked to be sent a photo of the painting, I cant remember exactly but will upload asap). It was about being genuine. About being who you really are. No facades.

This hit home to me. One of those moments when you hear yourself talking to another person and thinking, wow that’s pretty wise, I should take note myself! In accordance with my previous post I’d been taking it easy for a while. Not engaging with others about Christ as much as I used to and thereby I realised I was no longer on fire. And not being on fire takes away from my courage. And not having courage takes away my boldness to approach people to offer them prayer. And I know that THE way to rekindle that fire is simply to do the will of God. And what is his will? Well at least part of it is cleary described:

7 As you go, proclaim this message: ‘The kingdom of heaven has come near.’ Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received; freely give. Matthew 10:7-8

It is the act of faith that relights the fire of Holy Spirit in you. And so I have again learnt this evening. I acted upon the words to be who I really am. And I know, I really am a child of the most high God. I, though I am female, have become a son of God the day I accepted Jesus into my heart! (Gender is not important in the spiritual realm btw). So anyhow, that means that I should act like one. So I referred to the text and explained that I regularly pray for people and offered him prayer. His face lit up. Yes he was clearly pleasantly surprised! And so I explained a little and then prayed for him. And what happened next was mind-boggling!

The music that was playing all evening were regular pop songs. At the moment I finished my prayer and I quieted myself, keeping my hands on his feet, the song that was playing in the back ground was that of Joan Osborne, “One of Us” and the verse that was sang at the moment I shut up was:

If God had a face, what would it look like?
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like Heaven and in Jesus and the saints
And all the prophets? And…

Wow! God never ceases to amaze!

We continued a very interesting conversation. Sharing past experiences and discussing manifestations of God which he had before encountered. When were done I asked him how his feet were doing, and he replied, he didn’t want to interrupt our conversation or he would have told me sooner, but his feet were now warm, whereas they had always been cold (and no, I didn’t lay my hands on in such a manner as to warm his feet…) He felt a warming sensation ever since the prayer.

Missing our boat to England has been so worth it because of this divine appointment. And the rest of the evening my heart felt like it were to explode! I felt like singing and dancing and shouting about His love from the rooftops!

Thank you Lord Jesus!



Rebuke the Devil by healing for God

We celebrated my mothers birthday one Sunday. My mother and I had not long before attended the Last Reformation Kick Start weekend in Zelhem. My mother was eager to share our experiences with the rest of the family. Unfortunately one of the in-laws was not amused about about the experiences she was sharing about healing and deliverance. The conversation quickly and amazingly turned ugly.

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Ephesians 6:12

To make a long story short, the discussion was ended and the in-law and their family left ion reasonably good terms, but the damage already seemed to have been done.

I refused to let the birthday end like this. To have the Devil disrupt and take away my mothers joy and the joy of everyone who came to celebrate. I prayed to God that we may manifest His Spirit and prove that the experiences my mother shared were truthful.

As the rest of us walked to the car park, a young lady on crutches came towards us. She was of Indian descent and accompanied by her mother. I was walking in the middle of the group and when we passed each other I asked her directly, what happend to your foot?

She and her mom stopped and she shared she had broken all her toes during a kickboxing match. It made me smile as I had recently learned of another “street healer” who had healed a guy who broke a bone in his fist from fighting. God want to reveal himself to all and it is not up to us to judge who has the greater sin. We have all sinned…

So I asked her if I could pray for her foot and she said yes. I leaned down, prayed in Jesus name and she immediately felt improvement. Prayed one more time and she was astonished. Asked me ow I did it. I explained it’s Jesus! I was too excited myself to continue explaining the Gospel to her, instead I called back the two family members who had walked ahead for them to see what happened. Those behind me stopped and looked on as well. I wished her a great day and she walked off and while she walked off we could all see her firstly give one crutch to her mom and then the second and she walked perfectly normal, still looking about in amazement. Wow! Thank you Lord!


3 prayer sessions, what a day!

It’s been a while, much has happened since my last post! And yesterday has been real amazing!

After a couple of days of doing mundane business, I was having trouble connecting with God. I had no doubt that God and Jesus were still looking out for me, but I couldn’t seem to lift my spirit, which I prayed about. My prayer even felt mechanic, without the passion I usually feel. Trusting the Lord was still leading me, I accepted the status quo in good hopes that I would be able to do Gods work in the near future.

(It’s funny where I used to experience God a few times a year and that did for me, I am now experiencing his presence at least weekly, and often daily. Going a few days without feels like desert time.)

So yesterday God moved again in a wonderful way!


A colleague whom I had spoken with about The Kingdom and the reality of God and spirituality on several occasions previously, had requested to speak with me once more. The situation they were in had become dire over the past couple of months and they asked for assistance. The person complained about having mood swings ever since they had entered into a dysfunctional relationship some years back, the mood swings had become more extreme. The person is still within the sphere of influence of the ex-partner and I was soon convinced their problems were of a spiritual nature. I listened intently and comforted as much as I could. I knew this person was going to be fine and victorious in Christ. For the sake of future reports on their development in Christ I will call this person “Agnes”. After some talk we went to a private office and prayed for her. Again I was impressed that she was in a period of transformation and would come out victorious. The Holy Spirit came over us and comfort and peace welled up within. When I walked back to my office I felt like I was embraced with Gods love, as if angels were walking besides me and I imagined them giving their protection as I made my way back into “the normal” work setting.

Now Agnes had since we last met watched the video “The beginning” of “The last Reformation” movement. I informed her I would be attending another kickstart weekend in Zelhem, The Netherlands the weekend after next. She wanted to join! Through the tears in her eyes I saw hope arise. Then I realised, that after I attended the kickstart weekend in Alkmaar, and was baptised myself, I prayed to God: “please never let me fall back in to just worldly living again!. Please God do not remove your Holy Spirit from me and lead me to do Your Will!” The next work day was the first day Agnes contacted me and our talks about God started. How wonderful that she was led to contact me again in time to come and join me, another colleague whom I will call “Cathy” and my mom. We had booked a 6 person Chalet, she fits right in!


I came back to the office where my other colleague Cathy was sitting behind her desk. She was not feeling well when I came in as if walking on cloud! I was thrilled by what had just happened. Cathy was visibly happy for me and what God had done and then started to apologise that she felt each time God moved in my life she was bringing me down. (She has been growing in understanding of God, and I have prayed for her several times, including two deliverance prayers which had set her free from chronic stomach trouble. She acknowledges this to be true and is building her relationship with God. She will be coming to the kickstart weekend in Zelhem as well and is considering baptism, which I sincerely hope she will do in order to be set free completely.) But here she was identifying a pattern that she would be down when I was on a God given “high”. I recognise the Devils work, trying to cause for a division, for my patience to run out with her, but it will not. As God himself has been patient with me for years and years on end, so to will I be patient with others. She was instantly comforted and we discussed what was troubling her in order to pray against it effectively. And what happened next was extremely interesting!

She said she felt like she didn’t have any emotions. She didn’t feel anything. She then commented, “I’m not depressed or anything”. I fell for it at first and asked whether the term “”lethargy” might be more concise. She confirmed and we stood up to pray. I commanded the spirit of lethargy to go in Jezus mighty name. I continued with more general prayer. I did not feel any specific sensation or change but I ran out of words and did not feel comfortable enough to continue in tongues. We sat down, she thanked me for my prayer, but I already felt it had not had much or any result. Then she stared to tell me about a recent phone call with her mom. Her mom had spoken to a depressed person and during the conversation with Cathy asked her out of the blue whether or not Cathy might be depressed. Cathy told me that that sentence hit her in her being. She denied, but informed me she had felt awkward. Now this is really interesting for me. Her mother loves her very much and would never have purposely passed on an nasty spirit in any way. However, as Cathy is growing in Christ and her light is starting to shine more and more brrightly, the Devil will try to prevent her from coming to Lord even more intently. So what happened here is that the Devil used the “utterance of words” to oppress herl. This spirit of depression had no complete hold over her as she is growing in her understanding of and has accepted Christ, but it was still able to influence her with a symptom of depression, lethargy. This struck us and we immediately stood up again for prayer. This time I spoke directly to the spirit of depression and immediately the atmosphere lifted, and we got the giggles. We just had to rejoice and praise the Lord it was that powerful! Wow!!! This experience contained such a valuable lesson!


That evening I went to visit a friend, Fiona, I had not spoken to for a while. Both of us having young kids, there isn’t much time to arrange get-togethers, let alone get-togethers where we can actually talk in between diaper changing and nose wiping :). This evening we finally had time to catch up!

I shared my experiences of baptism and everything that had happened in between. She was interested having searched for God in the past and taken part in bible studies. She had not however, seen the works of God made manifest as I was telling her about. At the end of sharing my testimony and explaining where the bible commands us (Christians) to

Heal the sick, raise the dead, cure those with leprosy, and cast out demons. Give as freely as you have received! Matthew 10:8

I offered to pray for her. I asked her what she was struggling with in life. She answered “insecurity” and “striving for perfection”. I commended the spirit of insecurity to go, and the striving for perfection to go as perfection is of God. She said she felt something in her chestbone just above the stomach. Prayed again and it was gone. I prayed over her to be cleansed and set free from oppression completely inn Jesus name. I asked her if she would on her own faith accept Jesus into her heart and she did, she asked Him to forgive her, and to come into her heart. The air became energetic, The Holy spirit came over us so strong. Her face became so soft, angelic looking by lack of better description, no tension in her face, no stress. The peace came over her, it was so clear! So beautifull! We hugged. We couldn’t stop hugging and thanking the Lord. She sat down and the peace of God surrounded us. It was beautiful.

I pray this feeling of security, hope, love, peace and understanding on all people! This is given unto all, by the Grace of God who gave us His son Jesus, the perfect lamb, to die for us on the Cross. This gift of salvation which frees us from sin, sin which keeps us from God, is free for us to accept! We can choose life, choose to love God through loving, and fellowship with, His son. Honest and true fellowship. Speaking to Him and confiding in Him even more so than you would to your best friend! I speak out loud to Him where and whenever I’m alone. And yesterday after this full day of prayer, I was singing and rejoicing and speaking in tongues, praising the Lord! My Jesus! My Lord! And yours if you will accept Him!

Jesus lowers a heartbeat and signals recovery

o a lot has happened since my last post. One of the events worth mentioning is the hospitalization of my 2-year-old daughter. She suffered from a few minor fever fits followed by a big one on Sunday evening. The big one left her breathless. I watched her turn grey. It was very frightening. Her fever had spiked within 20 minutes to 39.9 degrees Celsius (103.8 Fahrenheit).

We called an ambulance and I started to give her some air by performing CPR without compression as I knew during the fit her heart would continue. The emergency call operator said I could stop and she would continue breathing once the fit was over. And indeed this was the case. Once the ambulance arrived we were taken to hospital for a check-up. They could not find what had caused the fever, her clinical examination turned out ok. So we were sent home. The next day she endured another fit, but recovered quickly afterwards. Still high fever. That night she awoke in panic and clearly was having trouble catching her breath. I noticed she was again turning blueish around the mouth and again we called an ambulance. They diagnosed her with “pseudo Croup” a dry cough and advised us to keep her propped up and let her breathe in some steam. I sat up with her the remaining part of the night and noticed she was breathing by contracting her stomach muscles. She was working hard to breathe.

The next morning, I called the General Practitioner. They tested her saturation (oxygen level in blood) which was 89-91% and should be 95% or higher. The doctor called the ambulance and were taken to hospital. On a funny side note: my daughter was visibly exhausted but once she heard the sound of the ambulance she sat up straight and exclaimed “Ambulance!”. After that she laid down again.

Once at the hospital she was put on an oxygen mask. Her levels stabilized but she was still working hard to breathe. That night there was another crisis. She was panicked again for lack of oxygen despite the oxygen mask. The doctors were liaising with another more specialized hospital whether or not she ought to be transferred so that they could intubate her and put her on a breathing machine. My husband was with her at the hospital that night. He called me to inform me of the news. I was in all stated. As I had to babysit my eldest we agreed I would only go to hospital once the decision was final. I immediately started praying. Crying and praying. I was called back and they had decided to keep her at the current hospital and max out the oxygen to 100% and put the oxygen on pressure so that it would be blown into her nose. Thank God this helped to stabilize her again.

In the afternoon my mother and my eldest daughter came to visit. I asked my mum and daughter (4) to lay hands on my youngest and we prayed together. At that time her heart rate had been steady at around 125 (normal is 80-100 in rest). It had been over 200 during the crisis. I asked my mum to say the prayer, being the elder. She prayed with tears as my little one lay asleep with tubes and wires attached to her. When my mum finished the prayer and we said “Amen” the heart rate dropped to 99, signalling an alarm to beep just once as it immediately went back to 125 afterwards. Unbeknownst to me the nurses had put an alarm at the 100 mark so that they could respond immediately when her heart rate would decline either too fast or adjust oxygen levels once she reached a normal range. It was amazing. Just one beep. And it turned out to signal her steady recovery from then onwards. This was Wednesday afternoon. The doctor’s had already convinced us she would stay over Easter for sure. But God had other plans. Her recovery went so rapidly that on Friday she was taken off the oxygen, anti-virals and anti-biotics (of the latter she finished the 3 day course) and we were discharged on Saturday and Home for Easter Sunday, Hallelujah!

The prayer of a righteous man availeth much! James 5:16

Righteous through faith in Jesus and through His faithfulness to us.


Kickstarted in a mall in Alkmaar

During the kickstart weekend the attendees, after receiving some teaching, were divided into groups and sent out to different public locations in Alkmaar to get kick-started. To approach people, tell them about the Gospel and offer to pray for them.

Some people of the public weren’t interested at all. But after some persistence I did get to speak with and pray for a few people. I met a young lady in a wheel chair who had Down Syndrome. The chair was manoeuvred behind a construction pillar in the shop so I could’t approach her directly. I asked the young man pushing the wheelchair if I could pray for the lady. He was her care taker and didn’t see why not! He said she couldn’t speak very well but she was able to understand what I said. So he moved the wheelchair and I knelt down in front of her. Picked up her hands, introduced myself and explained to her I was going to pray for her. She was clearly amused and responded with sound in excitement. I continued to explain that I was going to pray for her in the name of Jesus and then she sat up straight and said: “Jesus? Him I have seen!” Wow! That was amazing! I was astonished and replied that that was wonderful! So we could pray together! I continued to pray for her general health and safety and that she may walk again some day. Argh…’some day’… not a very specific prayer, still building up faith here. Nevertheless she clearly enjoyed the contact and we waived our goodbyes.

Then I noticed an elderly man sitting on a bench in the mall. Great, that meant he had some time to spare. I approached him and explained I had experienced some wonderful things in Christ and I would like to share these experiences with him. He was very clear about his non-belief. He was quite adamant there was no God and there was no way Jesus could heal him either. In fact if he did then he would buy me a diner! I noticed he was wearing hearing aids in both ears and asked if I could pray for his ears. Absolutely not! Then his wife came towards the bench looking a little puzzled. I acknowledged she must be wondering “What is this young lady up to with my husband?”. When I explained I had offered to pray for her husband which he refused I noticed her interest. I offered to pray for her instead and she was happy to accept prayer.

I asked her what I could pray for, did she have any pain in her body? She confirmed she had a painful knee. It always hurt when she was walking about. So I prayed a simple prayer in the name of Jesus over her knee, and she took some steps and the pain was gone! My first healing experience! Wow. Then I continued to pray for her ears as she was also wearing hearing aids. Then the husband started pulling my sleeve and demanding I pray for him! Haha, brilliant. Now I would love to conclude that his or her ears were healed that day, but they weren’t. I believe that the process of healing was started though and I wouldn’t be surprised if later that week either of their ears would start to function properly again. That perhaps it was a proces. But I cannot, unfortunately, confirm whether this happened.

What did happen, and what is essentially is far more important, was that when I asked him whether he wanted to be forgiven of sin and accept Jesus into his heart did! He stood up, asked Jesus into his heart, and with tears in his eyes asked me to arrange for a diner date with him and his wife! I was thrilled! He exclaimed how happy his children would be once they heard he had once again accepted Jesus back into his heart! Tears welled up in my eyes too. I refused the diner though, thinking I was being humble by doing so. But now I regret that so much. I should have had dinner with them and further shared the Gospel and my experiences with the good Lord from since I was young. I trust they will receive my continued long distance prayer though. But the lesson I learnt here is to keep a business card on me to give away so that people can keep in touch if they feel the need to.

All in all good experiences and lessons learnt.

Nothing beats a God given natural high!

I know that there are many spiritual principalities and powers out there, most of which can give any devotee a sense of spiritual awareness and power. However, I also know that the resurrection of Christ is unique and his loving personal interest in each of our lives is truly wonderful, He is the truth and the way. His power gives life and leads to eternal life and I am so thankful to experience the related joy and fullness of God on a daily basis now! This is no exaggeration. That feeling can last forever! It exceeds any type of drug induced high like I have experienced during my student years. In fact it’s not even comparable, as this God given natural high is “unhorrid” and gives life and healing!

Yes, you too can experience this! The proof is in the pudding. Find a disciple of Christ, that is, someone who has close fellowship with Christ as it was described to us in the Bibles “book of Acts”. They can share the gospel and the life of the early Christians to you, before Christianity became institutionalized. They will pray for deliverance, healing and the Holy Spirit for you and can provide you guidance into this new real life.