God never changes. Only my understanding of God may change over time. Thank you Lord for building me up again. Thank you for installing within me that boldness to persevere and reach out. That I can fully grasp again, that I am fully saved by grace through faith. Lord I cannot earn your love, but I do so want to help to advance your kingdom! The problem is was running in front of you, not behind you. I was trying to meet an expectation that was not yours, and so I grew more and more weary. What an experience. And Lord I thank you.
1Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ: 2By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. 3And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; 4And patience, experience; and experience, hope: 5And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us. (Romans 5:1-4)
Lord today I was able to pray for people and tell them about your goodness again. I saw sad faces starting to smile, and two people telling me they had no more pain and the other that they felt very happy after prayer. I thank you Lord that I can not only bless them by telling them about you, but that you have also given me the means to bless them financially. I pray you will sustain this in my life. But if not, then I know even that will be a blessing!
Lord Jesus, thank you for doing a great work in me. Please have your way Lord, your way is good, my way is disappointing, too hard and tiring. Your yolk is light, and it is you who gives me rest.
Father in heaven, thank you for the revelation given to me via Scott Clarke, that the books written by Paul are for the body of Christ, Hebrews and onward is written for the Jews, to redeem them during the tribulation period. (Note to self, futher study….)
I fully came to Christ about 2 years ago. I repented, got baptized and received the Holy Spirit. I was elated. As I had seen the spiritual reality both of God and of the devil the teaching of Mr Curry Blake but also of others such as of Mr Torben Sonderguard rang true. They helped to wake me up and equip me to follow Jesus Christ.
I was “kick-started” to help heal the sick and preach the Gospel, and to set people free from demons in Jesus name. I’ve witnessed deliverance and healing. My walk was full on in the Lord. I never felt so alive. I was full of energy and every spare minute of the day (when not concentrating on the job or on my kids) my mind was on Christ. I was giving the Holy Spirit all the room and I was even used by the Lord to bring 5 people at my work to Christ! Baptism and all. And this in a very “professional” secular environment…
I wasn’t perfect, but my love for the Lord and to obey Him seemed perfect.
Then came an accident. I fell from a ladder and crushed my heelbone. I was hospitalised. I tried to pray right away but I was overwhelmed with pain. My parents were on the scene, my kids, it was too much for me to handle. My foot was operated on a week later and I wasn’t allowed to walk on it for 3 months. I was given morphine 4-6 weeks. Getting off themwas a terror as well. I went through a week of no sleep as I quit using them cold turkey. My faith in God never faded, but my faith in my ability to work for God faded immensely.
The accident took place in September 2017. Now that I’ve been fully back to work since end of January I feel deflated.
I feel I let God down, Im frustrated at some of my family members who instead of praying with me would be all to ready to point out that “see, you can’t even “heal” your “heel”. No Matter how clear I am that it is Jesus who heals when healing takes place…
I won’t let the Devil nor his Minions win, they have taken advantage of the situation by many smaller attacks of course and I’m getting warn down. I try to fast, I can’t even complete one day. I don’t feel confident anymore to pray for people out of fear of getting one more rejection. And while I’m writing this I understand I have to push through. And I will, but I could really use some prayer to help me get out of this miserable state. Less of me more of Jesus. But my mind is foggy as well. I can’t handle too much input. I feel overtired.
Thank you for your prayers, Jesus will prevail in me!