Today has been an amazing day, going through emotions from an ultimate low to an ultimate high.
A few weeks back I found myself thinking about a new car and googling new cars researching prices etc. I had no need for a new car, there was no reason for this sudden interest. I noticed the thought didn’t let me go. I told my husband I felt we would be needing a new car sooner than we had envisaged. Unfortunately I left it at that and took no further steps to check out our current car properly.
Today, we were all packed and ready to go on holidays when we decided to quickly have the car checked as we heard some rattling noise coming from the back right of the car. My husband took the car to the garage and I completely forgot about my thoughts those few weeks prior. I was expecting good news as the rattling sounded more like one of my kids had dropped a marble which was rolling around somewhere. To the contrary, it was bad. Some axle or rod connected to the wheel suspension was bent (ok, so cars are not my forte). We were advised against travelling.
My heart broke. My 5 year old was all geared up to go, and having to disappoint her was gruelling. And then all the wasted money and preparation, and a ferry to catch around noon! Aargh. I felt sick to my stomach. I cried a little but didn’t want my two year old to notice (the eldest was at the garage with dad). I went into prayer. Asking the Lord for wisdom for my husband and I to handle this situation well.
Thankfully I could change our ferry booking as well as the hotel reservation with limited additional cost. We did our research and found a good car an hours drive up north. A newer model than our old one, which was kind of exciting too! On our way back we stopped at what wee though would be a pancake place, but in actual fact they only served fries and snacks. At first I wanted to leave and get some proper food. But the place was really quaint and the man behind the counter was very engaging and friendly.
So we ordered our fries, and I’m so pleased we did! We got to talking and he shared with us his story of how he had recently bought the place and fixed it up. And how he was loving the flow he was in now but also looking forward to being able to take it a little more easy soon once the project had been properly set up.
I found myself concurring with him that its important to take rest now and then. And that people should more often follow their heart and do what they enjoy, that which brings them fulfilment instead of what they think they have to do in order to meet the expectations of society, family, friends etc.
He pointed out that the painting above my head, which was very dear to him, explained just that! (I’ve asked to be sent a photo of the painting, I cant remember exactly but will upload asap). It was about being genuine. About being who you really are. No facades.
This hit home to me. One of those moments when you hear yourself talking to another person and thinking, wow that’s pretty wise, I should take note myself! In accordance with my previous post I’d been taking it easy for a while. Not engaging with others about Christ as much as I used to and thereby I realised I was no longer on fire. And not being on fire takes away from my courage. And not having courage takes away my boldness to approach people to offer them prayer. And I know that THE way to rekindle that fire is simply to do the will of God. And what is his will? Well at least part of it is cleary described:
7 As you go, proclaim this message: ‘The kingdom of heaven has come near.’ 8 Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received; freely give. Matthew 10:7-8
It is the act of faith that relights the fire of Holy Spirit in you. And so I have again learnt this evening. I acted upon the words to be who I really am. And I know, I really am a child of the most high God. I, though I am female, have become a son of God the day I accepted Jesus into my heart! (Gender is not important in the spiritual realm btw). So anyhow, that means that I should act like one. So I referred to the text and explained that I regularly pray for people and offered him prayer. His face lit up. Yes he was clearly pleasantly surprised! And so I explained a little and then prayed for him. And what happened next was mind-boggling!
The music that was playing all evening were regular pop songs. At the moment I finished my prayer and I quieted myself, keeping my hands on his feet, the song that was playing in the back ground was that of Joan Osborne, “One of Us” and the verse that was sang at the moment I shut up was:
If God had a face, what would it look like?
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like Heaven and in Jesus and the saints
And all the prophets? And…
Wow! God never ceases to amaze!
We continued a very interesting conversation. Sharing past experiences and discussing manifestations of God which he had before encountered. When were done I asked him how his feet were doing, and he replied, he didn’t want to interrupt our conversation or he would have told me sooner, but his feet were now warm, whereas they had always been cold (and no, I didn’t lay my hands on in such a manner as to warm his feet…) He felt a warming sensation ever since the prayer.
Missing our boat to England has been so worth it because of this divine appointment. And the rest of the evening my heart felt like it were to explode! I felt like singing and dancing and shouting about His love from the rooftops!
Thank you Lord Jesus!